I have had so many mixed feelings and emotions today. There was a brief period where I considered continuing for 2 more days to make it 92. As long as it has seemed at some points, I suddenly can’t believe I’m here. This whole time, especially these last ten days have seemed so long. Even today I was thinking about how this has not “flown by” in any way but all of the sudden I’m in no hurry for it to end! I feel like I’ve only recently figured out how to use fasting as a tool for growth and awakening and now I’m done!
Enjoying my very last juice- In slushy form!
I feel intensely grateful. Like everything that I’ve been drawn to and experienced has lead me to where I am now and I wouldn’t change any of it. This also feels like just the beginning. I have experienced states of being during this fast that I don’t know if most people know are possible (without artificial means anyways). I have never been more thankful to be alive and I’m so excited to see where life takes me next.
Someone asked me if I would be posting “before and after” pictures. I don’t know that I will though there is a picture that I posted on the first day of the feast where I was looking much puffier than I am now. When I started this I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to accomplish. I knew I wanted to lean out some (I did) and take the cleansing process to the next level (whatever that meant). Along the way I got in touch with a really sweet part of myself that I only somewhat consciously knew I was looking for. I wanted to feel free and peaceful and now I can see that those feelings were always there, I just had to remove the blocks that were in the way of experiencing them.
As far as the nitty gritty details of day 90- I woke up feeling stiff and headache-y. I did a colonic which relieved a lot of it but there was still pressure in my skull. I knew when I finished that something wasn’t moving out and that I’d probably need to do a second session later. I got to spend a lot of time in the fresh air and sunshine today which was really wonderful and after my second colonic I felt a huge amount brighter and lighter. I also experimented with an idea from a friend (Hi, Sarah!) which was blending bananas in my juice and then straining the pulp out. So satisfying.
I’m getting ready to soak a bowl of prunes. 8 oz to be exact. I look at it and it just seems huge! I’ve looked at plates of food throughout this feast and at times, felt like I could devour every last morsel I saw. But now that I’m looking at actually eating, 8 oz of prunes seems like the most luscious, filling possibility and I imagine I will approach eating them with awe and (even more!) gratitude.
Thank you to those who have followed along and encouraged me. It’s time to get some recipes happening around here again
8 oz celery juice
44 oz orange/banana juice with vanilla and raw honey
34 oz cucumber/dill/parsley/lime juice with Himalayan sea salt and pepper
32 oz banana/orange/kale juice with raw honey
28 oz cucumber/dill juice
32 oz orange juice blended with 2 bananas and 2 nectarines and strained. Frozen in an ice cream maker with raw honey.