I admit it: I chose to work in Arizona this month because…well…I didn’t think I’d be doing a whole lot of working. I anticipated a massive dose of sunshine, plowing through my stack of library books, and brainstorming brilliant recipes from my hotel room. Instead, I’m literally working twice the hours I normally work and grasping for my sanity.
On today’s agenda:
1. A blog post I wrote a couple days ago but refrained from posting- I always hesitate on the really personal stuff but I’ve gotten some really wonderful comments from people who could relate to things I’ve posted in the past so I’m attempting to censor a little less.
2. Another day in the life: what happens when your flight gets diverted and you’re sent overnight to a hotel…without your wallet…or your juicer…
3. Travel salad recipe number 2!
“How much transparency is too much? Apparently, in the blogging world, there is no such thing. *sighs* here we go. How does a blogger *ahem* go on and on one day about the importance of meditation, self-love, and properly feeding the body only to “fail” the very next day? And how does this blogger, who very much wants to be a good example to her readers, admit that she isn’t perfect without appearing overly dramatic/whiny/attention-seeking etc?
I share, on occasion, my struggles with emotional and binge-eating. While I don’t want that to be the focus of my blog I believe authenticity is important. I shared every day of the Rose Cleanse with you, told you when I was feeling awesome and the days I wasn’t. I’ve been in such a good flow, and although I knew that abusing myself through food was still possible, I thought I was doing everything I could to prevent that from happening. And then I spent three days working more flights than I usually work in two weeks. And I crumbled to bits in the middle of a loud, vibrating metal tube (AKA an airplane) while aching for sunshine, fresh air, and a creative outlet. I binged. I had brief waves of self-loathing, disappointment, and a body that did NOT appreciate the sudden interruption of non-food items in the midst of all that juice and veggie-loving-living.
And then I moved on.
I’ve learned that no good comes from punishing myself. If anything, I need EXTRA self-love and care after a day like this. Bingeing means I’ve found myself in a situation that I wanted to escape from and I turned to unhealthy methods of distraction and soothing. So why would I punish myself for that?? I journaled. I wrote down the things I was feeling pre-and post-binge and what I could have done differently. I rested. I had green juice the next day. I looked at myself in the mirror: naked, bloated stomach, under-eye circles, and puffy face: and told my reflection she was beautiful. I apologized to my body and thanked it for putting up with a really tough day. I gave myself a literal hug.”
It has been a long week. Just the other day I was working a flight, we were making our descent…and then we weren’t. Our landing was aborted last minute due to weather and we ended up spending the night in a completely different city. Sans juicer with only enough time between flights to sleep, I felt completely unprepared for the next day! I dug into my work bag and found some wheatgrass powder, grabbed some fruit from the hotel, and (yes, I must admit it) drank some really bad coffee to carry me through to green juice time. Having carried the Rose Cleanse through February, I’m feeling pretty “off” after this week. After a couple of teary, discouraged, and exhausted phone calls to Britney (my poor lady) I sent myself on an online mission for some positivity and found some of the most beautiful, encouraging spots on the web. For some serious feel-good, definitely hop over to Cynosure and Divine Winks (thanks, Sam!).
If you scrolled all the way down for the recipe I don’t blame you (I do it all the time!).
Rande’s Other Favorite Travel Salad
1 5 oz box baby greens
1 jar organic salsa
1 ripe avocado
Chop avocado and add to greens. Pour salsa over the top. You may only use half the jar, I like to use the whole thing and sometimes even an extra avocado to make it really creamy.
P.S. You still have until Friday the 9th to enter the Vegus Juice Giveaway!
P.P.S. I’m late in the game but Pinterest and I are now friends :)